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Last night, Ian was awake a lot! He had a lot of trouble pushing out some poo so he stayed up late, then woke up his usual three times to eat. 

1. I am tired

2. I am thankful we cosleep!  Can you imagine how much more tired I'd be!?

Yesterday my mom wanted to call and talk to the kids. This morning I found a Facebook post she tagged me on about a tiny homeschool toy that grows in water. 

1. She interrupted family time. And I don't want more crap, especially chokable crap, in my house. 

2. My mom wants to be involved in my kids' lives and they will grow up knowing Grandma loves them. And what a great time to model "people before things" last night. 

I went to church yesterday but missed the sermon because Ian wanted to constantly nurse and Adam wouldn't let me be one of the many women who break the rules and nurse in the family room. 

1. I really needed a regular church day. I'm annoyed and disappointed and I feel like there's no point in going if I can't listen and nurse.... Which means I'd miss Easter services before Ian is old enough for the nursery. 

2. I got to sing four songs to God. And see people. And Ian will not be this little and need me for long. 

Change in attitude

I was thinking during rest time today that I should start thinking about things I'm looking forward to (aside from rest time and bedtime!). Some days I wonder if I have or am heading towards adrenal fatigue like Lori has because I don't find as much joy in time with the kids as I used to. Now "good days" are days that run on schedule... And that's sad. 

So, rest time is ending (or else Abigail will not sleep tonight). I need to get out a veggie snack (bleh), heat up some dinner, and do some desk work. 

What am I looking forward to?

Obviously not the veggies. I want to have something I'm doing with the kids that I'm looking forward to. Maybe we can start making some decorations for Adam's birthday tonight since he's going out with an out of town friend who is visiting. 

Things I'm grateful for:

1. This tiny little face 

2. Mom taking the kids out this morning

3. Doing Bible study first thing today